Contagion

I'm not a huge fan of school. Not because it's not important...it is. And not because I don't like learning...I do. I think it has something to do with the pressure to perform a certain way. I have a way of learning that I don't think fits into a system. One of the things that I wasn't a fan of was papers. I'd always start out great but towards the end I would fade off and not really care what the outcome was. Here's the thing...I have to write a paper every week now...possibly for the rest of my life! The difference is that I can't fade off at the end...in fact, the end is the most important part! And because I memorize my messages I desperately need everything to flow as smoothly as possible so that I can internalize what I'm speaking.

I had a block yesterday. Nothing was flowing. It was chunky and all over the map. The funny thing is that this week I'm speaking on passionate Christian spirituality and I was anything but passionate about it...until this morning. It just all clicked and man do I love that feeling...when it all lines up and you feel like God has just given you divine wisdom and insight to communicate in a way that will make complete sense to people.

Now we'll just have to see if I'm off my rocker or if this actually does make any sense!